heavenly colors? or is there just something severely wrong with my brain?

OK, i'm going try to explain this thing that's been with me ever since i can remember, and hopefully i'll do a good enough job that people at least get the gist of what i'm trying to say.
Ever since i can remember, i've been able to feel in color. this is a concept many people don'tunderstand, so i'll try to explain it. Think, if you will, about the best feeling you've ever had; now try to remember how exactly that felt, go back to that spot and try to grasp everything about it; sight, smell, sensations, thought, all of those things. Now, when i do this excersize, the dominant way i can identify those feelings is through color. My feelings, my emotions - that is, happy, sad, angry, etc. - are defined by colors. This doesn't always mean that i see a color when i feel a particular emotion, it means that i feel the color, and through the color am able to feel the emotion it represents to me. I think that the best way to explain this to other people who are not this way is to tell you to think of expressions like, "He was so angry he saw red" or "She was green with envy" or even "I'm feeling really blue today." If you think about it, many people do associate colors with emotions, but for most people, they see a color which makes them feel a certain way; red equals anger, blue equals sad, that sort of thing. Where as with me, colors don't effect my mood, they define it. The colors i see around me mean nothing more then colors and cannot alter my mood whatsoever. I feel the colors that match the emotion i am currently in. If i can correctly identify the color that i'm feeling inside of me, then i will be able to lable the emotion much better. Now, sometimes if the emotion is a particularly strong one, i will be able to actually see it in my head, and if it's a manic emotion, it'll even taint my vision, like in the expression above about being so angry that you see red, and I have heard people say that they have gotten so angry that thier vision takes on a red haze. That's how it is for me at certain times, only with any color. Hopefully you're not confused as of yet, because it's about to become much more confusing, and there will probably be people who don't even believewhat i'm saying. Be that as it may, i feel like i should write it out anyway, just for those who believe that there is a higher power which can never be explained by science. (I am not necisarrily saying that this odd condition i live in can't be explained by science; i have never studied the brain to know if it is a rare or even never-been-heard-of occurance, i've just never met anyone else who thought that this was something explainable using medical or any other style of science). Think again for a moment about emotions, but this time try to remember a time where you couldn't even put what you were feeling into words. Perhaps a grief so strong and accompanied by other emotions as well, that grief really just didn't do the feeling justice. Or maybe, as i have felt on a few rare occasions, you've experienced an emotion that, no matter how hard and longyou searched for a title, you came up black thinking of what to call it. You perhaps couldn't communicate this feeling to anyone, because you'd never experienced it before, much like the first time a child experiences things like jealousy or a young teenager experiences their first crush; something completely and utterly new to you, something you simply cannot define. While most of the time, we have older, wiser people who can help us in defining these newemotions, there are times that emotions simply cannot be put into words, for many people anyway. I have no doubt that there are people who never experienced anything like this, and that's fine, in fact, i envy them. But coming back to my "condition". The reason i had you think about undefinable emotions, was because on a few occasions of my life i have had those experiences where i just could not define the emotion i was feeling. During these times, the color is the same; undefinable. In other words, the color i see or feel when i'm experiencing emotions such as those are a different color then the ones the make up the world around us. People have said before that, in another world or planet, or, if you believe in God, heaven will have new colors that human eyes have never seen. All the colors we've ever seen are from the three original primary colors; blue, yellow, and green. Apart from the colors that stem from these, you cannot imagine any other colors. But i have seen some inside my head and/or heart when feeling an emotion that is strong and undefinable. People who i've told this to have asked me to describe these colors, but it's something that's nearly impossible. Howwould you describe the color red to a blind person who has never seen color in his life? I can't put abnormal colors into words, because they can't compare with the rest of the
colors in this world.

(A thought occured to me while i was telling my friend Nick about this; i am an extremely judgmental person, and i am very ashamed of it. while i was telling him, i was very self-conscious about it, thinking he wouldn't believe me. i said, "i know it sounds far-fetched, but please believe me!" and he replied, "Why wouldn't i believe you?" the answer, once i was honest with myself, was that if i didn't have this thing, and someone else told me that they did have it, then i would not believe them. i would probably think they were making it up for attention. but how can i think that about people when i know this to be true about myself? )